SAHABAT

Sungguh indah persahabatan itu

Sederhana dan tanpa rasa cemburu

Terbuka dan tak perlu malu,

Untuk mengakui segala kekuranganmu

Namun, aku mengenalmu belum lama

Dan tentu saja kita berbeda

Watak, sifat, bahkan tutur bahasa

Tapi kuberharap itu bukan masalah kita

Maafkan semua sikap burukku

Dan semua yang pernah terjadi di masa lalu

Kuhanya ingin menggandeng tanganmu

Sebagai awal tanda persahabatan baru dariku

Teman...

Senyum tulusmu memberiku semangat

Seperti lilin yang menerangi gelap

Seperti pelukan terhangat yang kudekap

Dan kini kutau...

Pertemanan ini sudah selangkah lebih maju

23 Desember 2008

Do You Know

Do you know how much I dream a guy
That can always give me surprise
So he can lighten up my day?
Do you know how much I want a guy
That can make a joke with me
So I can smile everyday?
Do you know how much I need a guy?
Who will dare to fight everything
So he can live with me his whole life?
And do you know how much I can trust a guy?
Yes, he who tell me all his secret and being honest
So I can trust my life and put it in his hand

But...
Above of all those thing
All I want is his love
So he can accept me the way I am
Know what I want to say
In my silence, on my movement
Know what it is on my mind
In my heart, in my soul

And...
I want him to know
Whenever I love someone
I never wanna hurt him
I don't wanna make him sad
Coz his sadness is my sadness
I hope I can make him happy
Coz his happiness is my happiness

Do you know...
How much I wanna love someone again
Without fear, without doubt
Just like I used to feel
With trust, with all my hope and dream
Loving him
Forever...

I Love You

I love you
I can't stop loving you
Even you hurted me
Or you left me behind

God, what spell that he has put on me?
How can I love him so much?
Is this what they call true love?
Or am I just the stupid one?

Oh well...
I love you
I don't care what people say
The only thing I know is I love you

Sometimes

Sometimes I forget that you have gone

Sometimes I think you're not only bone

Sometimes like heard your voice singing in tone

Sometimes remember you when I'm alone

Dear God, where is he now?

Is he happy, why I can't see, how?

He's so handsome but mom says hot

He's my daddy the best that I got

But time run so fast till you don't remind

The age and getting older make you left behind

Dear father you are more than a star

You are near and still you are far

Today is your 70th birthday

And so today is you 100 days

Nothing I could give you and so to say

But I promise I'll remember you in one or other ways

I Just Realize

Honey...

I just realize

how much you meant to me

How much you used to love me

I never knew it before

I was too selfish...

Please forgive me

for I've made mistake...

Honey....

I just realize

how much you always care about me

how deep my heart has falled in love with you

But... I think
I just realize

that you've out of my reach

you've walk away and leave me here

you've done your best

you'll always be my hero

Too sad,
I just realized all that things...

Just A Feeling

I don't know who you really are
I haven't ever met you
I even can't touch you
But the distance can't stop my feeling for you

You said you like me, you love me
You said you want me to be by yourside
But how should I know if its real or not
I only hope that your love will never cold

Love is blind, love is beautiful
Should I trust this man is wonderful?
Soon we're gonna meet
Please baby please let the dream becomes sweet

Lots and lots, Papa...

Lots and lots of memories about you
But I dont know which one is the best
There are times when I just want to erase you
But there are more times when I remember your face

Lots and lots of tears since you left
But I have to stop this pain really fast
Eventhough times when laughes are shared
But still it hurts so deep and can't be replaced

Are you there hear me now?
Listening my heart yelling that I'm missing you?
But don't you dare to turn your head back
Coz the truth is my heart yelling that I love you

So, Good bye Papa...
We always love you...
Everything has past, just leave it...
Your future is in front of you, grab it, feel it, and live with it...

So Long Papa

The dawn never looks as beautifull
as when I saw it with you
The breeze never feels as wonderful
as when I feel it with you

Home will never be the same
Coz you'll never be there
Home has lost its warm
Coz you've gone forever

Can I still have this memory
After years that will pass me by
Can I still remember all about you
Coz I'm afraid one day I'll forget you

The night will never be the same night
coz my knight has left me now

So Long Papa...

I Should Stop This Feeling

Loving someone doesn't mean have to belonging
Loving someone doesn't mean he must love you too
But guys, that's not so simple in the real world

When you love someone, you wanna have him as your own
When you love someone, you want him to love you too
But guys, that's not the real love, they say...

Should I stop this feeling?
Loving a guy that I don't even know if he has the same feeling or not
Loving a guy that maybe, he doesn't know that I love him so much
Loving a guy that can make me feel so comfort at any condition

Isn't it funny that we need more than love to united two people?
Is it just lucky if we can have someone that love us just the way we are?
Where's the power of love when two or more people fight?
Should I stop this feeling, coz this feeling still young?

I should stop this feeling...
Not because it still young, but...
Coz love need sacrifice...
Coz love need process...
Coz love need to be free...

so long papa

Since I was a little baby
You're my idol
but you rare at home
and I miss you

When I was a teenager
You never exist
I almost didn't know you
but I still miss you

After I get my college
You came back again
and since then I've to restart my memory bout you
still miss the old you

Now...
what should i say bout you...
You will never come back again...
And I'm gonna always missing you

So long papa...
May you live in a better life
In a better world...

All of a Sudden

Heard your voice on the phone
Just make me feel like you've never gone
Keep called me with the same nickname
Can make me sure that you still the same

How should I know this feeling will come again?
Only a drop of tears you knew that I was cryin'
A breeze of your "honeyz" could calm me down
All of a sudden your love warm the dawn

You stay so far away
Cross the sea n like almost the sky
But everytime you talk to me, oh my
I think there's no space between you and I

Why oh why...
Why you ain't come or bring me there
You said you want me you love me, baby
But see what you do? you just leave me here

All of a sudden come clear to me
Your love is your love
It can't touch my world or my life
It just stop at the front gate of my love

sometimes life is suck

well, maybe today is not a good day... sometimes life is suck...



I'm not asking the same treatment from other people? but why there's so many people out there that just put some mask on their face?



well, i know in our life, we can not always put our real face in front of other people. sometimes we need it, to make some relations. But, can't they just stop staring at me like i did something bad to them? what have i done that make them so unpleasant with me... I did nothing...



Oh, God... I know there must be something, but i hate all this thing. If you, someone out there, who doesn't like me, then just say it to my face.

Falling In Love

Have you ever falling in love? How does it feel? Is it always up and down? Sometimes you can smile without knowing why... Just thinking about the people you love, you can smile or cry...

Sometimes your heart beat faster... Everytime you close to him/her, you feel so comfort, so peace and full of joy. It's like you don't need to be afraid of everything. You don't need to pretend to be someone else. You just be you!

Falling in love like thousands colours fill in your life. Thousands feeling that maybe can't describe. And most I love when someone falling in love, they can do thousands things that no one can do when they ain't in love.

In this page, I want all of us to share, how sweet the feeling of falling in love. How big the encouragement someone can have when they are falling in love...

Well, I hope anyone who read this, wanna share some experience, some feeling that they might have, or having it now :)

Not only the love for man/woman, it can be for family, daughter/son, sibling, best friend, anyone...

Thank you for sharing.

Feeling Free

After this several years I couldn't live my life with free, everything's easier now.

Maybe it started when i was at college. I got a boyfriend. Then the relationship become deeper and deeper. It's like you can't let him go or he can't let you go.

Do you ever love someone, loving him/her so badly, you want him dead or alive. well, love is so blind. So did I. Maybe that's why I can't live my life happily.

I always scared whether he really love me or not, what did he do, where was he going, with whom, etc, etc.

I've broken up with him, a year ago. It's not the reason I can feel release or free. It's the time that teach me, learn that actually, he (my ex-boyfriend) taught me so many things in this world. He taught me to be strong, to be tough, to be more logic, to be mature, and so many other things (by this, I don't mean all the things i've learned come from him).

Nowadays, there are many people, my friends especially, they said i've changed. Lot of changes. Be better, and be more patient. Even sometimes, I can't hold my emotion when someone cheated me.

Anyway, I believe I'm a better person now than yesterday. I believe I can be better than now. I believe I can be stronger, wiser, beautiful inside and outside. And most, I believe I can love someone, and loved by someone, no need to be scared of anything.

Thanks God.. Thanks for my family who always encourage me, my friends, my best friends... I still believe that there are good friends out there, even hard to find.. All the people I love, I ever loved, I always love you... thanks to you all..

May you live your life happily...

Tears in China

the night was cold, freezed to the bone
the baby was crying, nobody, everyone's gone
the night was dark, darker than before
everybody's hard to sleep coz there were no shelter

no home, no place to go
oh dear God, what sins did they do?
hundreds, thousands of people has died
can you imagine what still they have in life?

mother, father loose their child
and so an orphan the child become
everyone out there
give your hand and raise help

All the things you do
Just a little help or a big one
they don't measure it
As long as you do it with your heart
Believe me, they knew it from the very start

Continue My Journey of Life

Hey guys....
Thanks for paint some colours in my life
And left footprints many places in my heart

You guys....
Sometimes make me happy,
sometimes angry
But every time we shared is crazy

Oh guys....
How beautiful this few months or years
How peace and joy to have you here

But guys....
Life goes on and now
I shall continue my journey of life

Note : Wrote this when I left Bandung (Last February'08)

"B, Honey"

B, honey...
What spell have you put on me?
This feeling won't go away
And it's going deeper each day

B, honey...
If you were the bee & I were the rose
Will I bloom after you take the honey?
Or am I going confuse & feel loose?

B, honey...
Your love give me courage to fight
Fight all the fears I have inside
Oh B, my baby...
Your voice just like a thunder
Lifted my spirit to be stronger

B, honey...
If only you have no queen
Am I gonna be the first one
Take the place in your heart?

Oh, I think love's blind
I love you, B...

What Are You Gonna Do?

People keep saying to me
"Please, open your eyes
He has belonged to other, honey
Loving him will bring you sadness"

Guys, I know this may wrong
But why God put feeling between us
You said everyone has their own soulmate
Who's and which one is mine?
How if his real soulmate is me?

Oh my God...
How selfish I am
I know if I were his wife
I might hurt like wanna suicide
But I still love this guy

Should I go away?
Should I stop this feeling?
But how?
If you're in love,
Can you stop your love?
What are you gonna do?

IF LOVE YOU IS A SIN

First time we met
I had no feeling at all
But you often near my wall

And after some times
I knew that you always try
Walking through my floor

Each time you passed me by
You winked your eyes & smiled
You stared at me for some moments

I don't know when it began
It's like I missed you
Whenever you ain't around

But somehow...
I then know that you've belonged
The ring at your finger showed

I keep on trying, saying to my heart
"If loving you is a sin,
I'm sorry God, I don't wanna stop
Loving this man
Loving you doesn't mean must belonging you"

just for you

hari ini seiring bertambahnya usiamu, seiring dengan berjalannya sang waktu, semoga makin dewasa dan bijaksanalah kamu dalam mengambil setiap keputusan yang mengisi hidupmu dan tau mana yang terbaik untuk dilakukan. Karena kini, jiwamu harus lebih besar dan lapang, bukan lagi hanya ego yang diperhitungkan. Semoga hari ini menjadi hari yang besar bagimu. Suatu titik dimana tujuan hidupmu, kebahagiaanmu benar2 telah kau pikirkan dengan jauh lebih matang. Kini aku tidak seistimewa yang dulu. Tapi jauh lebih istimewa. Karena aku tau, aku telah melepaskan pedihku, membiarkan cintaku yang jauh lebih tulus singgah ke tempatmu.... Membiarkan kau, orang yang paling kucintai, lebih bahagia daripada sebelumnya. Kesuksesan, kekayaan, kapanpun bisa kau raih dan atau terlepas. Tapi mohon jangan pernah kau lepaskan rasa cinta dan bahagia, karena tanpa cinta, terhadap apapun, kondisi apapun, kamu tidak akan bahagia. Cinta terhadap apa adanya. Puas terhadap apa yang sudah kamu miliki. Karena di luar terlalu banyak yang lebih baik, kita takkan pernah bisa mendapatkan itu semua, dan ingat, keserakahan hanyalah awal dari penderitaan yang jauh lebih panjang....
December 12, 2007

The Only Thing

The only thing I can say now
is I'm so sorry
The only thing I want to say now
is I love you
The only thing I wanna do now
is to hug you
The only thing I want you to know now
is I always appreciate you

Oh my God,
What have I done?
Did I hurt the one I love again?
Did I make mistake?
Or should I just say
Leave me alone, you'll hurt again

My dear God,
I don't want him to leave me
Yes, maybe I'm selfish
I don't wanna see his pain
coz his pain is my misery
I wanna see him smile
Live his life happily
If I only bring him sadness
So just please let me go

The only thing I wish now
That I can be there for you
Whenever you're down
That I can be there with you
To share all your burden,
your story, your life.
I wanna be your witness, forever...

September 3,2007

B E R S A M A M U

Bersamamu, aku seperti dapat melakukan apa saja
Bersamamu, aku tak pernah takut jatuh
Bersamamu, dunia tetap cerah meski hujan
Bersamamu, aku bahagia

Karenamu aku bisa cemburu
Karenamu aku dapat merasa kehilangan
Karenamu aku bisa tertawa dan menangis
Karenamu aku tumbuh dewasa

Tanpamu aku kesepian
Tanpamu aku merasa ada yang hilang
Tanpamu aku tidak biasa

Kuingin menghabiskan sisa hidup ini berdua denganmu
Kuingin menjadi seperti yang engkau mau
Kuingin kau menginginkanku lebih dari apapun
Kuingin kau memilihku

Namun, di atas segala permohonan dan perasaanku
Ada yang kusebut dinding
Dinding yang begitu tinggi
Berisi segala perbedaan kita
Cara hidup, bergaul, sifat, cara memandang segal sesuatunya

Walau bersamamu hidup menjadi berwarna
Walau bersamamu tantangan terasa mudah
Walau bersamamu aku jadi tak takut derita
Namun egoku hanya ego manusia biasa

Mungkin aku belum cukup dewasa
Mungkin aku belum cukup bijaksana
Aku tidaklah orang lain
Aku hanyalah aku
Dengan segala kelebihan dan kekuranganku

Aku tak pernah kecewa pernah bersamamu
Aku tak menyesal telah menjalani sebagian hidupku bersamamu
Aku memang pernah marah, benci dan kesal
Tapi itu hanya emosi yang karenamu mereka ada

Aku belum menyerah
Walau kutahu jalan ini tidak akan mudah
Aku tidak akan menyerah
Karena asaku masih ada

Kubiarkan waktu menyembuhkan segala lukaku
Kubiarkan waktu menumbuhkan kepercayaan diriku
Kubiarkan waktu mengajariku apa artinya cinta
Kubiarkan waktu yang akan membuktikan padaku
Adakah kau milikku, adakah kau belahan jiwaku?
Kubiarkan waktu yang menghapus air mataku
Kubiarkan waktu yang menemaniku hingga kutahu
Adakah kau akan bersamaku mengarungi lautan hidup ini?
Perjalanan panjang yang takkan pernah sama bila bersamamu

Januari 23, 2008

Kenangan Bersamamu, Takkan Kulupa

Pertama ku bertemu denganmu
Aku hanyalah seorang biasa
Pertama ku mengenalmu
Aku masih tiada beda dengan lainnya

Namun kini…
Lima tahun telah berlalu
Dan waktu yang singkat ini
Telah menggoreskan kenangan tentangmu

Aku yang dulu,
Kini telah beranjak dewasa
Tumbuh menjadi seorang wanita

Saat kutumbuh…
Kau awasi, ajari, bimbingku
Kau selalu disana menemaniku
Dan tanpa sadar
Kau telah mengisi hatiku
Mengganti sosok yang kurindu

Kau guruku, kau panutanku
Kau bantuku berdiri, kau bantuku berlari
Saat hariku mendung kau buat cerah
Saat sedihku kau buat ceria
Kesal lelah dan marah
Kau tampung dengan sukarela

Dan kini telah tiba saatnya
Ku harus berjalan sendiri
Menempuh dan mengarungi hidup ini

Wahai guruku yang kupuja
Selamanya ku takkan pernah lupa
Jasa yang telah kau torehkan
Kan slalu terukir dalam jiwa raga

Rasa syukur dan terima kasih
Hanya itu yang kini kupunya
Tapi percayalah
Ia kata seribu makna

This poem dedicated to my "先生”, at Desember 10th,2005

A Note for My Best Friend

Too many memories we've shared together
Too many words have been said since I knew you
But they're never enough, for me and you
They always come around and tie us one another

When the first time you come in to my life
I never knew everything could change with you
You bring the sun light and complete me
In your own way, your own rules
You blow those dark clouds away
And make my sky so bright and blue

Today, after many years
We've known little bout each other
We've done some things together
I wanna say this to you
Maybe this is the time for me
To let you hear this from my heart

"I love you, I always love you
Far deep inside my heart
You're always there, never go
Even sometimes you make me sick
But you must know
No one can replace you
To feel this sweetest part of my life"

Feb 17, 2004

A E N O A R U

"Aenoaru" is a club's name
It has its own code
It has its own mode
And still has its own good

If you see them together
You'll see smile and cry
But when they are alone
They've their own style

All of them don't like to fight
They choose to find the right
Honest, simple, crazy, always tight
That's all how they look like

I'll never regret to be one of them
Coz, it carries one memory in my life
A memory that never can return
Or change by anything
A memory that always teach me
Teach me how to survive
Teach me how to trust
Teach me how to love one another
And teach me to be the best of who I am
To be the one of them!

January 23, 2008

Dia

Dunia ini penuh suka
Ada canda, juga gelak tawa
Namun, di antara itu semua
Terselubung suatu lara
Segores luka, tetesan air mata
Terbagi, sungguh terasa

Saat luka mengiris hati
Saat jiwa berteriak pedih
Sayap sayap itu kembali
Menyelimuti, mengobati
Hangatkan jiwa nan sedih
Rangkulku mesra sekali

Dia...
pelindung hatiku
Sahabat jiwa sepiku
Lelucon setiap tawa
Air mata kerinduan
Penghibur setiap duka
Dia... pahlawan sejatiku

Saat mata memejam
Terbayang sosok tubuhnya
Wajahnya yang menawan
Senyumnya mendamaikan
Setiap inci dirinya
Ada padamu, cintaku...

January 23, 2008

I SHY

There's nothing I can say
After all the things he's done
Only a hope and pray
That he's a life that happy & fun
There, million things I sure
That is sweet and tender
But do you know how pure
I feel your love and desire
Oh my life, my love I surrender
You'll always in my heart
Now & Forever
Oh sea, star and sky
Please tell him tonight
How sorry and I shy
Must leave him in this fight

January 23, 2008

A Poem For My Best Friend

I never knew someone like you before
You're different, you're unique, you are you
I couldn't imagine if you're not there
That time when we first met
You're care, you're tender, you're kind

We've known only bout several years
But sometimes it feels like forever
I know, there are still many things we can treasure
For our whole lifetime together

Today, I know it's your special day
It's a celebration, it's your birthday
And for our friendship, for our future
I congratulate you, I wish you
A very good, a full of love & joy
A happy life...
Happy Birthday, My Dear Friend

January 23, 2008

You Still Love Me

You came last night
As usual, in a hurry
Smiling at me, light
And then walked in lil slowly

You touched me
You hugged me
And I could sense your smell
All around my body

Honey, honey baby
I know you still love me
Your eyes can tell no lie
Cause I've known you not for a while

Then you walked away
But turning back
You touched my face
You kissed my forehead

Honey, honey baby
I know you still love me
Your eyes can tell no lie
Cause I've known you not for a while

You touched my face once again at the front gate
And I knew you can't loose me now or forever

Feeling

Each time, each day
I love you more & more
How can I stop this feeling, oh baby
I want you that's for sure

Baby, I miss you everyday
Every single hour and all day
Even I can see you today
But at night you can't stay

Baby, baby you're so sexy
I wish you're the only one for me
But I know it's kinda crazy
If I think that someday you'll marry me

22 April 2008

Akhirnya kata itu
keluar dari mulutmu
Dan aku tak punya apa-apa lagi

Apa yang kupunya?
Hati ini seperti remuk sudah
Jeritan sakit teredam
Dalam mulutku diam

Aku pasti mampu melewati ini semua
Karena kutau kau bukan milikku
Cintakulah yang salah
Tak seharusnya kubiarkan
Terima kasih selama ini
Terima kasih cinta, selamanya...

21 April 2008

Kau hadir kembali
Walau dalam batas ketidaksadaran
Kau katakan inginkan hadirku
Kau ucapkan kata mesra
Kau bilang kau merindukanku

Perasaan ini melayang
Antara percaya ataukah ilusi
Walaupun begitu,
Kunikmati momen setiap detik itu
Karena kutau itu takkan lama

Kini...
Hari telah berganti lagi
Kau masih belum menyadari
Walau sedih dan sesal di hati
Paling tidak, kutahu ku dihatimu itu pasti

11 April 2008

Sedih dan mengoyak dada
Meratap meraung kuberteriak
Adakah rasa ini akan lebih lega
Tidak...
Perasaan ini tidak menjadi lebih baik
Adakah kau adil padaku
Adakah kau merindukanku
Adakah kau mencintaiku

Tidak...
Tak seharusnya kubiarkan
Perasaan ini mungkin hanyalah dosa
Perasaan yang tak bisa kutahan
Perasaan ini sungguh menyiksa

Mengapa?
Mengapa ini harus terjadi lagi?
Mengapa kau tega lakukan ini?
Aku tidak meminta lebih
Aku tidak memaksa

Yang kubutuhkan hanyalah cinta
Yang kuinginkan hanyalah rasa aman
Kuhanya ingin pelukmu, dekapan hangatmu
Salahkah aku bila mencintaimu?